This is going to be a bad day. I can tell right away, first thing this morning. I am not interested in a fitness lifestyle at all. I am over it. This is hard and I don't want to do it anymore. I then remember a picture I saw. This is what I want to look like while laying here. I get out of bed and realize I won't get their by being lazy.
I need to prepare my meals for the day, so I get a bunch of yummy vegetables, chicken and rice. I cook enough for myself to eat meals for today and tomorrow. If you want to see how yummy it looks I posted a picture of it on my Instagram. Even though I am not feeling it at all today, the show must go on. I am amazed how some days I feel like an animal, uncaged and ready to get shredded at the gym. Then some days, eh, fat and unhealthy sounds fine to me, we all die of something. A fit lifestyle has so many ups and downs. My goals outweigh any and all excuses. Sometimes I am strongest, at my weakest.
I eat my meal 3 and it came from my delicious prepared chicken and veggie mix. This meal is so good. I wish I could eat a huge plate full. I finish eating, now it's time to head to the gym. I better go sooner than later, because I will find the smallest reason to skip today, like my headache that just appeared. I get to the gym and don't feel very excited about being here, but I made it. I start off with stretching to warm up a little, then plank. I plank and tremble like it is the first day I have ever done this. What is going on with me today. I repeat this 3 times then move on.
Time for circuit training. I do crunches on a stability ball, 5# lateral raises, 4 sets, 10 reps, changing hand and body position each set, then ball squats for 15. I repeat this routine 3 times. The energy during this circuit is so low. I feel like my head is in the clouds. I would rather be somewhere else, doing something else. I can't really say what else I would rather be doing, but something else for sure. I finish my quick routine, now it is time for cardio.
Cardio, this is my least favorite thing to do when it comes to fitness. I have to stay in one place for a predetermined amount of time, sweating, aching, and going no where. The benefits of cardio are why I continue to spend 50 minutes of my life on a treadmill 5 days a week. I climb up on my same treadmill that I have been using each time. I am comfortable with this machine now and will be upset if someone is using it when I need it. I push the quick start button. As soon as I get going, I have to pee. So much for drinking all that water to help with my headache. It will just have to wait. I tell myself that taking a pee is my reward for 50 minutes of cardio. This seems a bit harsh, but I am afraid if I get off now at the 3 minute mark, I may not get back on. I already have tightness in my left hamstring. I must stretch in order to continue. I jump on the side rails, with the belt still moving and stretch my hamstring for a moment. I hop back on the belt and look down at the time, 5 minutes have passed. This is going to be a hellish 50 minute session. Time keeps ticking by slowly, and all I can think about is how my leg is starting to burn again and how much I need to pee. This is getting ridiculous. I hop off for a second time, stretch both legs then hop back on. I have successfully made it to the 10 minute mark. Already, I have been through so much. All I want to do is walk on a treadmill, is this to much to ask. My leg has stopped giving me issues, so I can focus a little better. I still have to pee and that isn't getting any better. When the timer reads 25 minutes I am relieved to be halfway finished. I have a new problem now. The first 25 minutes has been occupied with stretching, whining, stretching, and needing to pee. Now, I can't find any good music to groove to. I still have 25 minutes to go. I browse Spotify Radio for something good. I find nothing, I try 80's, electronic, rock, etc. Nothing is hitting the spot on any of the radio stations. I feel like I have a craving that can't be quenched unless I find the right music. I decide to make a Fleetwood Mac channel, and this actually hit the spot. It was groovy and calm. I have 20 minutes to go, a good channel and no cramping. I am looking forward to finishing so I can take a pee. The last 20 minutes didn't go very well, time was slow and my bladder is full. I did manage to finish and watch the timer hit 50 minutes. I have literally never been so relieved to finish cardio. I quickly make my way to the restroom, then head home.
When I get home I just want to eat. I grab that delicious instant oatmeal. Rip open 2 packets, hot water over top, mix, eat. This is my favorite meal right now. I ask my son if I can have a cup of coffee. I figure it is like a coin toss, he may say no, he may say yes. He says yes, I can have a cup of coffee. This cup of coffee is about 1 calorie. It won't do any damage to my day.